Part IV - Signs and Results

My Journey to RPh

Part IV - Signs and Results

I was worried after the board exam. I was not totally confident with my answers. All that comes to mind are my wrong answers, and I can't even think if I got one question right. I really don't know if I'll pass. I was hoping for a miracle then.

Makakasagot ka naman talaga sa exam. Kasi multiple choice naman. Ang tanong, "Tama ba?" Hahaha 😂

To stop worrying and stressing myself, I wasn't thinking that much about the exam. I restrained myself and anyone from talking about it. I turned my phone off for days. Got myself busy about something else.

After the exam, every day I went to church - attend masses and spend time at the prayer room talking to God. I know God's will be done. I hope that it is in His will that me and my classmates will pass.

On the night that the exam results were released, I was at the church. By then, I prayed to Him that whatever came out - good or bad, I will be able to accept it.

I lighted candles and wished for a sign, I said if the candles' light will go low, I failed. And then the light went low. I was worried then. I asked again for a sign, I tried again, how about the opposite of what I said - if the light will go low, I passed. But the light didn't went low, it went even stronger. I said it again but the answer was still a 'no'.

Now I think about it, I want to laugh at myself. Hahaha.

A lot of other different signs made me paranoid too like things always fell (hagbong) and my mother said don't let the things I will used for the board exam fell. When I was walking home, my pencils fell out of my envelop. They also said that after taking the exam don't ever turn your head around. I have a habit of before leaving, I always look behind me, looking if I left something, I still did that on the exam days.

I even had a dream months before the exam. I dreamed that I wasn't able to finish answering the exam and Iwas crying and another dream of I didn't passed.

I walked home slowly that night. I was afraid to know the results. I turned my phone on, as well as the wifi once I got home. Unfortunately, the wifi connection wasn't cooperating. I was really nervous. I didn't told my family that I heard the results are out already.

Passers before said if you passed for sure someone will call you. I waited for minutes. And no one did. So I said to myself, if I didn't passed, that's fine. I can try again next time. If this is really meant for me, it will be.

I was preparing myself on how to tell my family that maybe I didn't passed when someone called my mother. Then my mother shouted with glee, I didn't know the caller told her that I passed. I actually can't believe it.

So I called my cousin and told her if I can use her internet connection, I want to see if I really did passed. And then, I saw my name. I made the sign of cross and utter "Thank You Lord!"

You are really amazing Lord God!! 😇👼

Lesson learned: Don't believe in signs and dreams. Hahaha.

Kidding aside, really, believe in yourself and trust God above all. 😊